[Femslash February 2016 Series Essay] I’ll never write a book with a sad ending. Here’s why.

[TW for mention of suicide]

Following the 2013 Tomb Raider reboot, I wrote 700,000 words in one year. I was consumed by such love for the Lara Croft/Sam Nishimura ship, I lived in a perpetual writing coma. If I wasn’t writing, I was thinking about writing, or talking about writing, or gushing about how much I loved these two women and what I was going to write about them. I loved their dynamic, their story and everything about them. Even though they weren’t an ‘official’ couple, there was no doubt in my mind that they loved each other.

I’d lie awake in bed at night and imagine the type of adventures they’d have; I’d imagine silly things I could write about while I was driving to work during the day. They were my life, my soul, and I can hardly remember anything about that year that had nothing to do with them.

In the second half of 2013, riding high on the success of a popular 130,000 word slow-burn epic I’d written, I was planning my sequel, another monster story that ended up being 234,000 words long. I’d spent a month plotting what I thought was going to be a great story. I’d consulted folks from the culture I was writing about, I’d done all my archaeological research. As for the narrative, I’d been writing a sort of remix of a bunch of the older game stories into the new reboot, and I’d plotted what I thought was going to be an amazing homage to the original Tomb Raider.

My concept? I was going to transform new Lara Croft—the Lara who felt, and cried, and loved—into the old Lara Croft: someone stoic and unfeeling, someone who distanced herself from everyone around her and killed without remorse.

I was going to do it by killing her best friend and soulmate, Sam Nishimura.

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The conclusion to Min’s saga is nearly here!

‘Bone to Pick’ Synopsis

Min only wants to put her ordeal at Frost behind her, but what if going public with what happened would protect the people she loves?

It’s been nearly a year since non-binary artist Min Lee’s harrowing last month working at Frost International, and she’s finally free of them.

Well… except for the fact that her best friend Henry is still in upper management at Frost HQ. Oh, and that her housemate and her housemate’s boyfriend still work for Frost. Furthermore, Min is anonymously contracting graphics to Frost Marketing so she can save up enough money to pay off her credit card debt and finally return to university to study fine art.

It seems that everywhere Min turns, she can’t get away from Frost. To make matters worse, one of the CEOs has it in for her best friend.

Henry’s friend and union lawyer Natalie Heiser proposes a solution: launch a lawsuit and public campaign against Frost for Min’s wrongful dismissal, promising that a successful outcome would mean a culture change at Frost and a better work environment for her friends. 

Even though Min is still figuring out the finer details of her non-binary identity, she’s comfortable enough with who she is now. But as comfortable as she is privately, is she ready to defend her complicated identity against the devious & handsome ‘True Blue Aussie’ CEO who’s in bed with most of Australia’s media?

Bone to Pick is the tense, dramatic conclusion to Min’s long journey of self-discovery, self-acceptance and living authentically.

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